Sunday, January 6, 2013

Waaaaaah!!

It is the day before I must return to work.  It is the day before winter quarter begins.  It is the day before I go to work for the first time ALL YEAR.  It is the day before my life gets really really really busy again.

I am really really really not excited.

I have so enjoyed this time off.  I have been able to re-prioritize, recognize what went so painfully bad last quarter, what makes me so mad at myself, what I need, and what I have to do to make things work. It ain't all pretty.  I need to make a lot of improvements this quarter...as a student, as an intern, as a teacher, and as a person.  And yet, I feel like I have not enough in me to do everything well.  But what does that leave me with?  I refuse to give up any more things.  I will not gain any more weight.  I will bring back opportunities to make myself proud.  I will study better.  I will work harder as an intern.  I will be more on top of things as a teacher.  I will walk the dog more.  I will snuggle with the oldman cat more.  I will make smarter decisions about how to create a healthy me.

Anyway, I could continue, but the point of this post was to list all the things I AM excited about that comes along with returning to the real world.  It's very difficult, as the 'not looking forward to' list is really really long.  But, I digress.  Here we go!!!
  • Seeing the kids, all the hugs I'll get, the opportunity to catch up on the last few weeks with them
  • Chatting with Paola
  • Lunch with Melissa
  • Watching the kids snuggle with Zenith
  • Jokes and banter with all my old students
  • Free Share and seeing what the kids got for Christmas
  • Time in my classroom - love that space
  • NPR on the way to school
  • A chance to feel busy
  • Getting up with the alarm and the anticipation of the day
  • Getting to watch the kids grow academically
  • Sight word songs
  • The new drama game I'm going to introduce during sharing circle
  • The coffee I'm going to try myself too
  • The delicious lunches I'm going to start making
Hmm, that's all I got right now - but that's okay...it was enough to get me excited!!


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I'm excited for you, Jessica.